Counting the seconds, minutes, hours…all night long. No pain relief. (hysterectomy from hell)

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  Push the button.  Wait. Wait….its not going to help.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  Push the button.  wait.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  Push the button.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait. No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

If you read all that, that was one hour.  Every five minutes I could push the button for more pain relief.  And every five minutes I got a dose that was so miniscule that it did nothing. It didn’t touch the pain. It wasn’t hysterectomy pain it was a pain in my head like nothing I’ve ever experienced.  I didn’t even feel the wound.  All I felt was my head.  And all I could do was push that button, every five minutes.  And count out the seconds…1 mississipi…2 missisipi…from around 6pm to around 10am every morning…around 16 hours.  Over and over and over.  5 minutes..push the button.  12 times 5 minutes.  1 hour.  16 hours.  5 nights.  5 nights.

Sometimes I pressed the nurse buzzer. No one came.  Sometimes I cried out. No one came. Sometimes I screamed. No one came.  But the shift change in the morning told me they’d heard I’d had a bad night.  But they didn’t give me pain relief.  They didn’t help me. They didn’t care.  They just told me to push the button.

1 missisippi 2 missisippi  3 missisippi …

Every morning I swore I wasn’t going through that night again.  11am I improved. Midday pain was down to a ‘7’.  I called for doctors, nurses.  My head still hurt bad. ‘7’ is still very bad.  But I was more lucid…so I asked for doctors.  No one came.  4pm…’8’….5pm…’8.5’…1 missisippi…2…missisippi…6pm ‘9’…Help me…someone…6.05pm…

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  Push the button.  Wait. Wait….its not going to help.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  Push the button.  wait.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  Push the button.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait.  Wait.  Wait.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  Wait. No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…1.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…2.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…3.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…4.  1 mississippi 2 mississippi 3 mississippi 4 mississippi 5 mississippi………..58 mississippi 59 mississippi 60…5. PUSH THE BUTTON.  No relief.

Only 14 more hours til morning.hys